Grace and Miracles

Through grace, I am being delivered.  Through a miracle that I knew would come (but just didn't know it would take 6 months), I am coming out of the darkness.  And it's not just "getting back to normal".  I feel like a whole new "me"--which is what I deep down inside knew I needed.

Like my previous post, I knew that I knew a lot.  I have listened over the last 17 years to sermons and books and friends and my husband, and I've even heard the same stuff over and over and over....  But it just never seemed to sink in.  Now, I think all that is starting to break through the barrier and into my heart.  I can see that time actually IS precious and not just reading the words and trying to believe it.

I've had a lot going on the last 6 months.  I've read like 1/2 my Bible.  Definitely a good start.  Although I don't always process what I'm reading nor do I always understand it all, but it's certainly a good place to be.  Another big tool I've been using is Joyce Meyer videos. I can play them on-line anytime.  It's so nice to scroll through them, pick a topic that I think may speak to me that day and then BAM!  Right between the eyes!  And learning more about her past I understand she was just like the rest of us.  Her timing almost the same as mine.  Mid-to-late 30s just starting to come around even though she had been a Christian a long time.

So since she's been so influential, I've decided to take notes on her videos.  I'm sure I can get any of her books and she's already written on the same topics, but this seems like a good way for me to get down the highlights that jump out at me.  That way, I can refer back to my notes when I need reminded about certain topics.

I thank God for helping me through probably the roughest 6 months of my spiritual life.  It's been transforming.  It's been rewarding.  Even being in a place of peace for only like 2 or 3 days, I can tell you all the pain and tears have been worth it.  It's been a gradual process, but actual deliverance has been instantaneous.  Praise God.

In an effort to "keep on keeping on", I have deleted my Facebook (a worldly thing I've been holding onto with lots of different justifications), I continue to take notes from Joyce Meyer, I'm continuing to read my Bible, and I'm going with my heart on the little things I hear.  I am listening more intently to the nudgings of my heart.  My focus is on God.  And to narrow the focus, I need to get rid of the noise--cable TV, Facebook, secular radio, and any other worldly thing I might figure is "okay" when it's just noise.  Some worldly things are not "bad" necessarily, but they distract from focus.  Going to hopefully keep my focus narrow with my "God blinders".  God is with me and I know He will help.

As long as I ask Him....